In amongst the complete chaos of my world (think mountains of paperwork and fabric samples piled up beneath a graveyard of broken toys and stale biscuits) it has suddenly dawned on me that I have just two weeks until we welcome our no. 2 bambino into the world - if indeed our no. 2 is as punctual as our no. 1 who arrived right on schedule (he is a Virgo after all!).
I have just taken on a stack of new clients in the past week - how I imagine juggling them all along with a newborn and a boisterous toddler is totally beyond me but I suspect it has something to do with being in complete denial about just how much our lives are going to be altered by the joy, wonder and ear-splitting cries of a teeny weeny baby.
The first time around I wasn't self-employed. I finished work 7 weeks before the baby came... 7 WEEKS!!! My God, how insanely decadent. I pottered around making pretty little things to go in the baby's room. I took yoga classes 3 times a week. I cleaned our apartment from top to bottom with a toothbrush. I had massages and went for long, ambling walks in the sunshine.
This time, the baby has to stick a foot into the side of my tummy with as much force as possible for me to even stop for two seconds to remember that I'm pregnant. There have been no massages, no yoga classes and certainly no afternoons lying on the sofa reading magazines. I have managed to wash the baby clothes but they sit in the laundry basket where they will no doubt remain until we bring our little bundle home from the hospital. Life could not be more different.
But here is the question... would I change anything? Not a chance. I love the life that Andre and I have fought so hard to build. I love the fact that we live immersed in creativity (which just so happens to also be our work). Yes, I could use a few more hours sleep a night. Yes, I wish I could slow down the clocks. Yes, I wish I could carve out a few more peaceful moments to sit in quiet meditation with my baby. But our world is such a beautiful blend of happiness that I feel my soul renewed daily by the craziness.
So watch this space folks. Tick, tick, tick... the scenic route of life is about to get a bit rough under foot for a while!